Sometimes, while filling out forms or waiting for an e-mail, I feel like our adoption journey looks like this:
When I want it to look like this:
It requires that we move slow and careful...
It goes sideways...
And, at times, it seems never-ending.
I want to see this!
But, alas, this is not the journey of adoption. Like many things in life, it is full of twists, turns, and surprises. Thinking about the next step, fretting about the next turn, and worrying about potential surprises is not beneficial. Yet, to put all that aside can be hard! At least, it is for me. Luckily, I married a man who is the calm to my storms. He helps me to remember that if I focus too much on the destination, I miss this:
The beauty of our journey. The details. The small moments. The adventure in our grand adventure.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.”
I've said it before, and will likely say it again. Waiting can be hard, whether it is waiting for a referral or waiting on a piece of paper you need for the home study. Patience is not a strength of mine. This process is a tremendous exercise in trust. And though I have my days, like today, when I wonder why there are so many steps, I know we will get there. It's not about time, it's about timing. And God's timing is always perfect.